Amanda Wilson

Thinking..

So today’s been the first day I’ve actually been able to focus, to think, to write.

I’m generally very aware anyway, it’s just who I am, but lying here sick gradually returning to normal makes you realise that some people never return. Some people never get well. Some peoples lives are just pain.

I actually do have a condition that ensures you endure daily pain. How I deal with it? Positively. My condition is not life threatening. It’s not debilitating. It’s become part of who I am. I don’t moan about it or complain about it because you know what? I’m lucky. I’m lucky that this is all that’s affecting me right now. A little pain.

This week I’ve been fighting infection, a fight I am only just getting on the right side of. It’s been awful (and I have pretty high pain threshold). I’ve felt so sick, weak and disorientated, worse than I’ve ever felt before. But I’m winning, and so many don’t. It makes me sad.

Live your days. Enjoy your lives. Wake up and feel grateful. After all there is so much beauty in our world, love in our hearts and people in our lives.

Live happy. 😀

Enjoy the journey.

Enjoy the journey.

"Hella Cute Questions" - Ask me some

Can’t sleep so going to answer all of these.

—  1. Who was the last person you held hands with? My son
2. Are you outgoing or shy? Depends on my mood
3. Who are you looking forward to seeing? Not saying..
4. Are you easy to get along with? I hope so.
5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you? Probably not
6. What kind of people are you attracted to? The genuine kind.
7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now? Probably not.
8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind? …
9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable? Ermmm… No.
10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with? Myself?
11. What does the most recent text that you sent say? I’m Alive!
12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now? Oooh lots of songs!!
13. Do you like it when people play with your hair? Yes.
14. Do you believe in luck and miracles? I guess..
15. What good thing happened this summer? It’s only just beginning?..
16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? yes?
17. Do you think there is life on other planets? Not sure.
18. Do you still talk to your first crush? No.
19. Do you like bubble baths? Rarely have the time.
20. Do you like your neighbors? Yes.
21. What are you bad habits? Worrying
22. Where would you like to travel? America 🇺🇸
23. Do you have trust issues? Don’t we all to some degree?
24. Favorite part of your daily routine? Living.
25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with? Most of it?
26. What do you do when you wake up? Drink tea.
27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker? Darker.
28. Who are you most comfortable around? My children.
29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up? Yes.
30. Do you ever want to get married? Done that. Got the tshirt.
31. Is your hair long enough for a pony tail? Yes.
32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with? ..
33. Spell your name with your chin. Anavs.
34. Do you play sports? What sports? Running on occasion.
35. Would you rather live without TV or music? What’s TV?
36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them? Yes.
37. What do you say during awkward silences? Something stupid.
38. Describe your dream girl/guy? Would like to think I’m not that superficial?
39. What are your favorite stores to shop in? I just like what I like.
40. What do you want to do after high school? That ship sailed looonnnng ago.
41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? I guess. Depends what they did?
42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean? Brain is working overtime.
43. Do you smile at strangers? Yes.
44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean? Urghhh neither.
45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning? Wondering what the day will bring.
46. What are you paranoid about? People judging me.
47. Have you ever been high? No.
48. Have you ever been drunk? Haha. Yes.
49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about? Yes.
50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore? What’s a hoodie?
51. Ever wished you were someone else? Yes. Doesn’t make it right.
52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself? Can’t narrow it down.
53. Favourite makeup brand? ?
54. Favourite store? If I like something it doesn’t matter where.
55. Favourite blog??
56. Favourite colour? Depends on my mood. Usually a shade of green. Or red.
57. Favourite food? Right now.. Mexican.
58. Last thing you ate? Quesadilla.
59. First thing you ate this morning? Porridge.
60. Ever won a competition? For what? Can’t remember ..
61. Been suspended/expelled? For what? No.
62. Been arrested? For what? No!
63. Ever been in love? Not the kind that lasts a lifetime.
64. Tell us the story of your first kiss? Behind the sixth form block. He might have got pinned to the wall.
65. Are you hungry right now? Always.
66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends? Haha no.
67. Facebook or Twitter? Twitter.
68. Twitter or Tumblr? Still twitter.
69. Are you watching tv right now? What’s TV?
70. Names of your bestfriends?
71. Craving something? What? Chocolate.
72. What colour are your towels? Neutral
72. How many pillows do you sleep with? One.
73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? How old do you think I am?
74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have? Zero. Am I dead inside?
75. Favourite animal? Tiger. Grrr.
76. What colour is your underwear? Nude lace.
77. Chocolate or Vanilla? Chocolate.
78. Favourite ice cream flavour? Erm.. Mint.
79. What colour shirt are you wearing? White.
80. What colour pants? Black.
81. Favourite tv show? What’s TV?
82. Favourite movie? Can’t choose ONE.
83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2? Is this a teen thing?
84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street? See above.
85. Favourite character from Mean Girls? This is getting old..
86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo? Nemo!
87. First person you talked to today? My children.
88. Last person you talked to today? My children.
89. Name a person you hate? Oooh hates a strong word.
90. Name a person you love? My children.
91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?
HA HA HA. 92. In a fight with someone? ?
93. How many sweatpants do you have? One. Of the skinny variety.
94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have? One.
95. Last movie you watched? 12 years a slave.
96. Favourite actress? Angelina Jolie.
97. Favourite actor? Can’t decide.
98. Do you tan a lot? If the opportunity arises. I live In the UK!
99. Have any pets? No.
100. How are you feeling? Tired.
101. Do you type fast? I guess.
102. Do you regret anything from your past? Yes. Usually things I’ve said. Or rather not said.
103. Can you spell well? I geuss. Ha!
104. Do you miss anyone from your past? Yes.
105. Ever been to a bonfire party? Yes.
106. Ever broken someone’s heart? Oooh yes.
107. Have you ever been on a horse? Yes.
108. What should you be doing? Sleeping. I heard it’s overrated.
109. Is something irritating you right now? Not sleeping?
110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt? Yes.
111. Do you have trust issues? Haven’t we had this one already?
112. Who was the last person you cried in front of? Myself.
113. What was your childhood nickname? Moo.
114. Have you ever been out of your province/state? Yes.
115. Do you play the Wii? Not really.
116. Are you listening to music right now? Just singing it. In my head.
117. Do you like chicken noodle soup? No.
118. Do you like Chinese food? Yes.
119. Favourite book? Can’t decide.
120. Are you afraid of the dark? The really dark.
121. Are you mean? I hope not!
122. Is cheating ever okay? Come on!
123. Can you keep white shoes clean?Never tried.
124. Do you believe in love at first sight? Something at first sight.
125. Do you believe in true love? The kind that lasts a life time, I hope so.
126. Are you currently bored? Yes.
127. What makes you happy? Seeing other people happy.
128. Would you change your name?Not anymore.
129. What your zodiac sign? Aries.
130. Do you like subway? I guess.
131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? Don’t ruin it!
132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? Myself?
133. Favourite lyrics right now? Hey blue eyes, what you doing tonight?
134. Can you count to one million? I really don’t have that sort of time on my hands.
135. Dumbest lie you ever told? I try to be real.
136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed? Partially closed.
137. How tall are you? 5ft 4 AND A HALF!
138. Curly or Straight hair? Straight.
139. Brunette or Blonde? Blonde. br/> 140. Summer or Winter? Summer. br/> 141. Night or Day? Day.
142. Favourite month?March springs to mind. See what I did there?
143. Are you a vegetarian?Yes.
144. Dark, milk or white chocolate? Dark.
145. Tea or Coffee? Coffee.
146. Was today a good day? Yes.
147. Mars or Snickers? Neither. I prefer Cadbury.
148. What’s your favourite quote? I’d rather be hated for who I am than loved for who I am not.
149. Do you believe in ghosts? I guess?
150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page? I’m in bed. (via 0penletterr)

(via thepessimisticoptimisticwanderer)

I, Amanda Wilson..

I, Amanda Wilson..